Saturday, November 13, 2010

November 13, 2010

Dear Deployment,
I am so over you. We are 82% down and 18% to go. I thought the Holiday season would go by quickly and would be easier...... I was wrong. This is the time of year that is all about spending time with your family.

Adding to my stress, My husband is doesn't have a job when he gets home. He has been trying to get a job for months but nothing is working out.

AHHHHH I'm so over this!!!!!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

October 16, 2010

Dear Deployment,
Things were going better. I had a really good week. My husband was able to come home for a 4 day weekend. We had an amazing weekend. All we did was spend time with the kids. We went to the Zoo, the park and went apple picking. It was so awesome. But now he's gone again. Not 2 hours after we left him at the airport our oldest (3yr) got sick. It is now 3 days later and all the kids and James are sick.....I'm even starting to not feel well. So, tonight is getting worse by the second. I have 3 sick babies, my husband is sick and it kills me that I'm not with him to help him feel better. 74% done....only 26% to go.....I can do this.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

10-04-2010

Dear Deployment,

Today was a hard day. I miss my husband. I miss the stability he provides. I miss the hugs. I miss him reassuring me that I am a good mom. I miss his laugh. I miss the fun we always have.
But I know I can handle this. I know I can make it through. You wont get the better of me. But you are making things so hard for my kids. My 3yr old broke down 3 times today....totally out of the blue and cried for is daddy. I miss my husband terribly but watching this hurt my children is ripping my heart out. They are so innocent. All I can do is show them as much love as possible and pray that one day they will understand why this had to happen and appreciate price that has been paid to allow them to live in a free country.

Why I started this blog.

I am in my 20s. I have 3 very young children. My husband is deployed. I struggle everyday to keep my sanity and I know I'm not the only one. My hope is that this blog will help me deal with some of the stress of trying to get through a whole year without my husband.